Albert Herdianto Widjojo
As soon as I’m Born, I’m Dying
After everything that is offered by the world
no longer can heal longs
when everything which is delivered
not interesting anymore to be heard
all I have is longing
that unanswered by the passion of romance
unstoppable by all the luxuries
not making a look over the offer of power
or flattery in the name of popularity.
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After all that is offered by the world
no longer able to tame the longing
I realized that what I want to hold tightly is affection
what I miss is a flame
my own soul which is united with all light
the light that is only there at home
live of my own life
what I forgot since came out after amniotic water
That made me die, as soon as I was born.
*O Light,
I just want to go home
Home.
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Illustration by Albert Herdie – Digital painting from part of my Long Journey Series – Home.
Another of your poems I missed. This line or flattery in the name of popularity. makes me curious in how does flattery live in the name of popularity?
I think everyone is like, thirsty, love, or even crazy about flattery, especially if we are already popular. Even, You also can see here how we will react if we receive criticism or a downvote. Flattery always makes us drunk.
That is an interesting way to look at the situation. I need to consider that and try to apply it.
Now I feel confused because I don’t know what you have to apply from it.
I had missed this one, but now after reading I just want to go home!
Go home? Which home?
The home within myself that allows me to be happy.
Now, that’s deep.
Indeed, Happiness is our nature…
It’s a complete art form, your digital paintings are wonderful! Drawing you in with the words, visually stimulating the imagination.
It’s a complete compliment form, your words, visually stimulating the motivation. Thanks a lot, Leslie.
I like your digital painting.
Big thanks, Elenka. I paint on the computer only as a substitute for canvas and paint in painting.
sad but beautifully written
Thank you Vidocka
Terrific write, very nicely done
Thanks for your appreciation
Yes, great post. (I’m revisiting) … Your cover photo on your profile is also very cool work.
One can’t help but appreciate your writing. Cheers!
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“And when I die, I won’t stay dead” Bob Kaufman
For some reason I just had this pop back into my head …
There is a trailer (probably you know) – https://vimeo.com/138967760
Thanks Howard, I really appreciate it.
I was curious about the statement that pop back into your memory. I will as soon as possible watch it.
Bob was a beat poet. It’s the title of a documentary made about him – won the award for Best Investigative Documentary at Doclisboa International Film Festival in 2015
I’m not sure why –
Wow, that really packs a punch! I was impressed with your writing, and even more so by your digital painting. I would like to learn how to do that, it looks really interesting. Thanks Albert
I’m honored. I’m flying high by your praise, also by your impressive humility. Thank you, Sally.
We are born to die, but that’s not all we are born to do…
Every human being came to earth with his specific vision and mission, as part of a Supreme vision. Unfortunately the reason we come as “live”, as the soul in the wrap of mind and body is forgotten, dying, once we are born as an identity which is then continually shaped by the civilization environment to fit with (the will of) them.
Do not believe in my words, but may you with all your life experiences, can find the depth of your meaning. Regards.
Have you ever read the Upanishads?
Why my friend?
I think you’d enjoy it, there is a very similar vibe to what you’ve written here…
Means you have read the Upanishad, Alx? How do you think of that? I try to read the “quintessence” approach of religions to the divinity and human nature, to “compare” with myself as a book.
Great post
Thank you Pamela
Each day is one day closer to my son.
Beautiful words Albert.
☺ Yes, but you are always close to him, are not you?
Yes but never close enough.
I think you are very, very close, because He is in you, and you are in him.
Thank you Albert, I needed that today. 🙂
You have all you need Carol, and that is great!
Thank you for sympathizing it, Marcelle. Cheers!
Nice..quite dramatic and sad but beautifully written.. 🙂
Thank you for sympathizing it, Marcelle. Cheers!
You’re welcome. Cheers!
? Cheers!!!
Your fins and my wings dear brother
let it always hold each other
to get through fire blindness order
until we go home together.
Each day we wake is a day closer to the day we don’t.
None can comprehend how alone each really is,
most do not try.
I can think of no better way to spend the remaining days than burning brightly in the darkness of humanity.
Your fins and my wings dear brother
let it always hold each other
to get through fire blindness order
until we go home together.
Great post Albert
Thank you very much Gina