I was not prepared. I was not prepared for the scream of the ambulance. I was not prepared to make the phone calls. I believed that I had done everything in my power to be strong and I am not strong. I can think of hundreds of things I could of said, and thousands of times I could have chosen to laugh instead of cry when he teased me. I thought I was going to somehow make it all come together.
When he daughter died and I came home in tears and scared with no words, he said sometime bad things happen and this is really bad. Abut an hour later when people started bringing food, he turned to me and said “I think they should bring kleenex, maybe the kind with lotion.
I am gong to buy some kleenex. I think I will get the kind with lotion.