What I would have been if we hadn’t met: lazy, self-satisfied, or maybe irritable and angry that the world is too harsh, foreign to me. And I would be spending time alone in the dark bar, hiding from the fact that time is running too fast. I could still run in the squirrel’s circle – I’ve tried it already – have more, shine brighter, and in the end, I would fall into the grave pit with all those fake gold clothes.
I imagine the catwalk stars returning home after a fashion show – no brand dresses, no plastic wings – take off the sweaty socks, have no longer strength for taking shower, and unable to fall asleep – empty thoughts continue to swing in the head like disc’s ball – does not glow, only glitter spills on the walls.
I know how the office workers come back from work – they fall asleep on the couch with a piece of pizza during the fifth part of the series, monitoring colorful lives of strangers, and at night dreaming about holidays that are so far away and always too short.
I myself have been such and could be such many times – to look forward to brighter days, a warmer summer, a hotter love adventure – and probably not get it finally.
But we met.
You took me by the hand, and I slowly dared to experience life – stronger, more sensitive, more painful, sweeter. Traveling with you in small steps, I saw much more of the world than before – flying by airplanes, trains, and freeways. Standing next to you, I felt more significant than when got the awards from my studies and then work.
Living with you, I no longer dream of vacation – all days look good for me. And the Earth is not so hard, and the stars are no longer so cold.
Today I know that the years we spent together are the most beautiful I have ever experienced. And not because you were something special – it’s me became different.
It is fortunate for me to find you in my heart.
© Fortune, 2009
Is there a person in your life who makes you change?