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One Year Ago ~ Day 300

One year ago today I lost my Daddy. I was with him when he took his last breath in the hospital. The last of my immediate family gone. Forever. Yes I have memories that will live on in my heart. And I am thankful for a lifetime of memories. But that does not take away the pain. Nothing will. When you love someone, it will always hurt without them. I still catch myself picking up the phone to call my Dad. I did everything for him, took care of everything 500 miles away. And now he’s gone. I am left to look for signs as I do for all the other loved ones I have lost. And I do feel his presence, especially with the cardinals. We always talked about how many “redbirds” (as he called them) he had and I had bluebirds. He wanted to trade some of his for mine. Too funny. His sense of humor is another thing I miss. And there it is… Remembering the good times actually brought a smile. Missing him every single day. 

This is one of the main reasons I say all the time to enjoy the little things in life. Tell those you love how much they mean to you. You never know what the next moment holds.

The cardinal in the photo was taken at my deck feeder. I will always remember my Dad when I see these beautiful birds. Funny how I have started see a lot of cardinals now. I wish I could call and tell my Dad, but I think he already knows.


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Written by Carol DM


  1. You were blessed to have a father you loved who loved you and did right by his family. Not everybody has that even for a moment, so they might look at you and say “Wow, Carol got to have a nice dad!”

  2. I totally get how you feel as I have a similar story and it is also of my dad. He left at a time I least expected and even though its been nine years already, it still feels like yesterday and the pain is still very fresh.

    • I am so sorry for your loss. We are never ready to let them go, no matter the circumstances. Because we love them so much, the pain will never go away. We just learn how to live with it.