One year ago today I lost my Daddy. I was with him when he took his last breath in the hospital. The last of my immediate family gone. Forever. Yes I have memories that will live on in my heart. And I am thankful for a lifetime of memories. But that does not take away the pain. Nothing will. When you love someone, it will always hurt without them. I still catch myself picking up the phone to call my Dad. I did everything for him, took care of everything 500 miles away. And now he’s gone. I am left to look for signs as I do for all the other loved ones I have lost. And I do feel his presence, especially with the cardinals. We always talked about how many “redbirds” (as he called them) he had and I had bluebirds. He wanted to trade some of his for mine. Too funny. His sense of humor is another thing I miss. And there it is… Remembering the good times actually brought a smile. Missing him every single day.
This is one of the main reasons I say all the time to enjoy the little things in life. Tell those you love how much they mean to you. You never know what the next moment holds.
The cardinal in the photo was taken at my deck feeder. I will always remember my Dad when I see these beautiful birds. Funny how I have started see a lot of cardinals now. I wish I could call and tell my Dad, but I think he already knows.
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I’m always with you, Carol.
And in joy and in the sad days.
I can hear these words from my Dad.
Thank you Robin.
Sorry to hear that, hug hug!
I lost my dad 10 years ago, still miss him a lot.
Sorry about your loss as well. We all have things to get through in life.
You were blessed to have a father you loved who loved you and did right by his family. Not everybody has that even for a moment, so they might look at you and say “Wow, Carol got to have a nice dad!”
Another perspective I cannot see when I get so deep into my grief Ann.
Thank you for that, it is well accepted and appreciated.
So many memories, some happy some sad. All are with me, it is how we carry on!
I know Doc, you are right. And I should know as I have been down this road before but each loss is so unique. My Dad, that has been a tough one. But losing Dustin was the worst nightmare I have had. We do carry them with us always. Thanks for your support.
The fastest way to happy is to remember happy. 🙂
I need to keep that one posted on my computer. Perfectly said. 🙂
That one came from my first mentor as a teacher. He always said that when kids were frustrated about work to be done…
Dear Carol, we all lose our closest position once and we have to accept it – also we will come to the line
You are so kind lado. I know the pain all too well, I have lost so many loved ones. But I have found each one is different. My Dad, he was 85 but I wanted him to always be here to listen and talk to. Nobody can replace him.
I trust my dear Carol, and I sympathize with your lovely greeting
Thanks to you again. It has been a difficult time.
I totally get how you feel as I have a similar story and it is also of my dad. He left at a time I least expected and even though its been nine years already, it still feels like yesterday and the pain is still very fresh.
I am so sorry for your loss. We are never ready to let them go, no matter the circumstances. Because we love them so much, the pain will never go away. We just learn how to live with it.