Ghostwriter
This post is very personal in nature. It’s real, raw and close to my heart. There is a risk of putting it out there and still I have to take the risk because I have to process the situation and find balance in my heart and actions.
Bro decided that the things in the house we don’t use need to go and his wife was a collector of things. I have way too many paper products and it really didn’t seem like a bad plan. It got into a bigger deal than I could ever have imagined. Two dump trucks, one backhoe and people I didn’t know are all over our yard. I find it unsettling.
Yesterday was our anniversary and we forgot all about it until late evening and even then we had to look up the date. That then moved to the Bro’s wife passed away and that is the 31st. That hit him this morning. He came down in tears to tell me he is giving up and going home to her. I can’t blame him. I can’t give him permission. I can’t really deal with the entire experience very well.
I truly don’t want another suicide in the family. I still understand the physical and mental pain he goes through every single day.
However, the sun is up and bright. I guess the best thing I can hope for today is to make some great memories that I can hold in my heart. There are no real answers.
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Question of
Sometimes do you feel you have to tell someone?
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Yes
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No
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Question of
Was this appropriate to share here?
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Yes
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No
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Question of
Is that I am feeling dispair?
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Yes
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No
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That’s a pretty good picture that you shared today.
You are right, there are no answers. But talking here hopefully will help you get though these difficult times, and remember I am always here for you. I hope no more suicides as well.
No matter what, the sun will always shine tomorrow.
I think this is time you should share your real Issue with the one you trust , Lets Join hand to rescue you from crises
We’re your family here. You share what you want. We are here to support you in any way that we can. Hugs.