At this very moment I am currently in a battle with depression. Some of the symptoms I am experiencing are irritability, indecisiveness, loss of motivation, and not wanting to be around others. What is really bothersome right now is knowing activities that can boost my mood, yet not having the interests to get out and do them because I do not have the motivation. On that, I anticipated the arrival of spring temperatures so that I could get out and enjoy my favorite activities, yet today I do not have the interest in doing any of them despite the weather being perfect for anyone I would have chosen.
It is not easy when you live alone and do not have a handful of friends that check up on you regularly. And I am feeling as though if I were to send a text message or call some of the people I have in my life, that I would not get a response back, which is why they are not an option in the first place. I have to say that, the only things I have the interest in doing that could very well fight my state of mind are positive things I find on the internet, listening to musicals, watching comedic skits like Saturday Night Live or maybe even watching professional wrestling, which I tend to gravitate towards the enthusiasm and storylines presented.
This is not the first time I have experienced this and certainly will not be the last! What sucks about being in this mind state is that it seems neverending, yet it is not.