Many know that I have a very specific reason to keep writing here. It is all part of healing and forgiving. My husband read a message where someone attacked my character. He agrees that I am far from perfect and make mistakes, still he saw the devastation. He has asked that after I help Doc Sunday, I leave the site.
He said that someone else will have to count the bluebirds. (He counts all the bluebirds that Carol posts.) He believes that being here is causing more heartache than good. Today I don’t disagree. If this is not a place where you can voice a concern it is too restrictive for the likes of me.
If I decide to end this, then I think it’s time to shut down the digital and simply close the doors. While the blog is fun and a great exchange of ideas, there is really no income and it’s time away from family. My husband didn’t consider Virily like that because he loved reading your posts and looking at your pictures with me. He thought he knew you all.
He said this “You have always been Eeyore who will always end up alone looking for your tail.” I suppose he is correct. Eeyore has always been my hero because he just keeps going, but I am not as strong as Eeyore.
I would imagine I will shed some tears as I worry what to do. When you wear your heart on your sleeve you are bound to get tromped on and still I am who I am, and I wouldn’t want to become so hard. I worked hard to get rid of the hate and the anger.
The only thing I am sure of, is that if I can keep posting Doc will have 30 posts to read and I know others will help because Doc has and always will be a hero.