I saw the world through his eyes today and my heart simply shattered. I know why he endures the pain. He’s trying to protect me. I catch when he falls. I try to have normal conversations when I see tears run down his face because the pain is so intense. My tiger of a brother is hanging on just for me. I said the words I thought he had to hear and he yelled “Liar”.
He finally said,” The day that I pass away you will die of a broken heart. You will just stop and I know it.”
There are no words that I can say to comfort him. I can’t help with his pain. I can’t do anything to please him. He is miserable and I am standing in his way to happiness or at least peace. There are no right answers and no one wants to hear it and no one wants to talk about it.
I saw the world through his eyes and I can give him no hope. I have failed.