I Just Got a Hard Lesson; JuNoWriMo Day Nineteen

I know I’m really behind on this but there is a lot going on around me. I want to try…

I just got notified of the death of a sweet, wonderful gal who I used to have quite the crush on, way back in grade school.

All these years I wanted to tell her how, back when we were kids, she was one of my better memories. I wanted to tell her that she was one of those few times I actually felt like a normal person and not constantly-hated like I believed myself to be back then.

But I never did.

I never once took the time to express my appreciation and gratitude to Dedra and now, I will never get the chance.

I will just have to suck this pain up too and hopefully, in the future, remember to tell everyone you love that you love them.

Don’t let those walls between you and those you care about stand.

Dedra would just smile and the whole room would light up. I never told her.

I hope somehow, her spirit picks up on my thoughts of her. I hope she can sense my memories and how she touched me.

Because otherwise, I will live with this regret forever.

Goodbye Dedra.

Folks, tell your loved ones how you feel while you can.


What do you think?

Written by DonaldPennington


  1. This couldn’t be a more perfect time for me to read this. I am sorry for you loss and grateful you shared your feelings today. The healing begins.