jaylar
My unrequited love for Shaun was not totally a negative.
Where other girls jeopardised their future by affairs and dates and broken hearts and that whole social world, I was protected. I never went through the ‘dating game’.
As if a chastity belt had been clamped on at the age of thirteen, I went through ten years untouched. I missed all the drama and distraction. This had enabled me to focus on my studies, get high grades, get a scholarship and now, on my way to professional school, on another scholarship.
Where girls I knew from High School were getting pregnant, going through all sorts of emotional tsunamis, dropping out, failing,condemning themselves to second rate lives, I was not.
When I finished my last exam, knowing how well I had done, walking off that campus for the very last time, there was a congratulatory effervescence.
When I reached home, my mother had baked me a cup cake as a kind of ‘award’ for my dedication to my education.
I felt triumphant, and later, as I sat outside in the sun, wondered if my love for Shaun, was not a kind of armour which I wore to protect me from emotional involvements.
However I would categorise or reflect on my past, I was entering tomorrow without baggage.
She didn’t realise it until the very end, that as she ridiculed his love for Laurie, she was as ridiculous.
Some youngsters cannot do the same thing you did. I had my part in focusing on studies during the school days and now, I am ripping all the sacrifices that I’ve done before. I hope that love to Shaun will be in reality.c”,)
No Shaun is out of Samantha’s life. She’ll go on without the baggage.
I got it. Happy life for Samantha! c”,)
Samantha loved an image, an idea, but Shaun never saw her or cared about her. She was just wasting time, but in a good way. She focused on him and didn’t date or have a social life, so she studied.
If I am on her shoe, I will do the same thing. c”,)