I cannot just stop and that is what I want to do more than anything today. I came here and I read and you have given me a gift. I can see a flame and there is a slight feeling of hope. This journey isn’t over. Bro will too be going soon and that will be a different kind of hurdle and I understand now that there is nothing I can do to prepare for some of the aftermath. I have to live through it. I am still crying every day – I am guessing that will go on for a long time. I still have to keep being accountable and I need a reason to “be”.
1. Today I will write
2. Today I will read
3. Today I will practice patience.
4. Today I will kill that pesky fly that is bothering me and feel good about it.
5. Today I will find at least one thing to smile about.
6. Today I am going to find one person who needs help and help them.