I truly wish I had a better memory. You know it’s a problem when the man with Alzheimer and the other very ill man remember things better than I do. It is becoming a very real issue in my life. I had my doctor do a block of tests hoping to see if anything can be done.
This evening things here feel pretty hopeless. I am very fearful. I am uneasy, unnerved, and anxious. I find myself feeling like I am falling through an endless tunnel. I am not certain why. There was nothing that different about today than the last few months. Things are bad, but status quo.
I must not look good because Bro said “You look horrible. I think we should take you to the hospital.” I gave him an odd look and said “You know that I am not fond of hospitals and I am not bleeding. I am not very energetic and I have a headache, but that is pretty status quo for me.”
I just wish I could have a better memory and keep my scattered thoughts more in order. I guess I am just out of sorts.
Anyway, I hope you all have a nice evening and sleep well.