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Tough Day

Today it’s hitting hard and I am not sure why. It’s almost like a storm is raging to prepare me for something even harder. I guess I have never felt more fear than I have in the last few years.  I suppose you simply carry it with you and it grows over time. I can’t explain why I am crying. I can’t describe my feelings. I can’t expect anyone to understand, everyone has there own bag or rocks they have to haul around.

I think the part of me that I thought was different or special in any way is gone.  I don’t want to face another tough day. I don’t believe there are good days ahead.

My heart and mind are dark.

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Written by Ghostwriter

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  1. I sat for a long time this morning thinking of what I could say to you. I am here. You have friends here that will listen.

    i hear the pain, all i would say is that you are special. Few are willing to put themselves out and share their deepest thoughts.

    i am here.

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    • Thank you. I often feel invisible. Today at work is a great example. We have to state the issue in the thread. For two hours all others issues were responded to but mine. It’s not that they don’t like me. They don’t know me I am just a name of someone they have never met and worked with. Finally, a manager said just stay signed in and close by and we’ll see what we can do. Sad.

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