Ghostwriter
I visit the grave of my mother quite often. I would rather always do it alone. I don’t enjoy others asking why am I crying or why am I not crying. I know that no one can understand the relationship I had with my Mom except the two of us. I don’t like to see her great grandchilden walking on her headstone and it doesn’t seem to bother their parents at all. I don’t feel like I belong to that family. So I can hear someone saying “Then why do you do it?”
Simply because my brother wants to go and he can’t drive himself. My sister and her children never go and I don’t blame them. My other brother I haven’t spoken to in years. He called me last year to tell me he was upset with me. I just told him I was done.
So I will go and talk to no one and not really participate. It will make the brother I live with unhappy that I don’t converse. I will have to remind him that they call complain if I converse. He will complain the entire hour and a half on the way home about how awful I am and all about my driving as well. It would be best for all if I didn’t go. There is no one to take him so I will endure this day. I keep hoping this will be the last time I have to go, but so far no such luck.
So hard reading about the struggles others have to endure.
Family can be hard. So much harder than strangers.
May almighty grant rest and peace to your mother in heaven , and give you the power Patience. I beleive there is no alternative of mother and once gone it can never be come back.
Everyone just happens to judge. This is your right.