and then I must leave. I just can’t do this today. Too many emotions, too many tears and too much illness to make things world right. I think then I will simply turn off the power and see if total silence is what I truly need. It’s hard because I have no control. I can’t go see him. He can’t talk. Everyone agrees that he would just be frustrated and angry to hear my voice, even though he can’t even talk now. It just seems like there is nowhere to go from here. My husband is threatening to put me in a hospital. (It’s a good thing I am the only one with keys to the vehicles. Perhaps it’s a great day for a drive alone.
https://youtu.be/1FExIWex_vcHope you enjoy the song. And thanks to all of you who have been kind, thoughtful, and supportive. It’s has a blessing and I am eternally grateful.
you are not alone, we are all here for you. i am so sorry this keeps twisting around so much. thoughts, prayers and hope sent your way~
I also wish the songs would stay the way they should! Doc please put that on a list somewhere!
https://youtu.be/1FExIWex_vc
I am certain people get tired of my writing and sometimes it still brings some clarity. I need a whole lot more clarity.
Take a deep breath, relax your nerves, and do something that will take you out of all the tension and stress.
Oh how I try. I don’t know how to settle anything down any longer. It’s just out of control.
Keep talking, keep writing, and message any time.