Ghostwriter
I remember a time, not too long ago, when I believed that having a good day or a bad day was in my control. I was pretty good at adjusting and taking on a new plan if that was needed. Currently I am in more of a free fall.
The doctor is pretty insistent that the knee replacement is a must. I don’t have the time, money, energy or desire to deal with it. I have learned pretty well how to deal with the constant pain. I think that I believe my body is breaking down for a reason. It was designed to be that way. I wasn’t made to last forever.
My husband asked last night if I was simply doing things I have to do or was I doing things I love to do. I am really not sure if there are things that I love to do any longer. I am often just sore, tired and overwhelmed with the simple act of living.
Computer says it is time to go to work. So I do what is required.
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Question of
Do you sometimes just do what you are required?
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Yes
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No
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Question of
Do you ever just want to stop?
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Yes
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No
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Please take care of yourself and the knee replacement is becoming more common these days.
Sorry about your condition. Don’t you have health insurance that will bear the costs? Most of my treatment is covered by health insurance.