Ghostwriter
I dug out my Mom’s journal hoping that I would find something there that would give me guidance, comfort, ideas or anything to look forward to because in the moment I am bleak. I have a fever and a sore throat and don’t feel good. All that is to be expected and I should take that in stride.
Rewarding bad behavior has always bugged me and today it’s tenfold. I thought perhaps they should dart people who are out with people they shouldn’t be and put them in isolation. What kind of person even thinks that way? That is not who I am, and now I have to wonder if it is who I have become.
Someone wrote about harming themselves in their sleep because of stress. How can you control what you do in your sleep?
Perhaps this is the breaking point. I imagine a huge celebration when I am silence and weary people get rest. Anger is rewarded and final peace might be the answer. It may be why this is all happening. It could be the plan. Now that calms me down.
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Question of
Are you having a good day?
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Yes
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Question of
Does society reward bad behavior?
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Yes
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No
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Question of
Is my fever really high?
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Yes
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No
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there would not be silence if you were gone there would be a roar of tears and anger at you not being here.
I would miss you.
Well you certainly made me laugh. I would miss you as well.
It is however a very odd time in my little world.
i would bet, lots of moving parts and no easy answers.