Ghostwriter
I did very well on my just ten reasons. It was one of my better days. Then I just took a few days where my only goal has been to survive. I got up did my chores, tried to do something productive and get all the chores ready for the trip.
I am happy to say I have not yelled or hit anyone! Bro often sneaks up behind me to scare me. I Often get loud and smack his hand. I have just jumped and glared! That’s great progress when things are so stressful.
Every single day I have gotten some things done and I have made some progress. I have also fallen, had some tears and broken a few things. My point, I am surviving. I am still living and I still have goals and accountability.
Today is 1/16/2020 and I am still making the final arrangements. (I am amazed at how many people want to have something said or done, I will do my best.) I cry every day, multiple times, and yet my eyes don’t hurt so bad. So I am either crying less or my body is adjusting. Either way, I will take that as a win.
The goals for the January 16 ~ January 20th ~ try to be loving, patient and kind to me and all those around me. Get my father buried and keep on going one minute at a time until I can do it 5 minutes at a time, 10 minutes at a time, and eventually the rest of my days.
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Question of
Does this sound like life on autopilot?
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Yes
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No
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Question of
Who sails my ship, is it me?
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Yes
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No
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Question of
Does time take the “bite” and “sting” away?
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Yes
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No
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Keep pushing through. You will make it through these difficult times. One thing at a time.
I am trying. I am feeling quite alone right now and that’s sad.