Ghostwriter
All the timing is now set. Tomorrow, Friday, I need to take my brother to our local doctor for some final testing and instructions. Monday he has open-heart surgery. Two valves need to be replaced, a double bypass and stints. This is really his own shot at having that last hunt that he wants so much. I am not brave. I am scared. I am afraid. I feel so alone. For the last 22 years, we have lived in this house. His wife passed away here. I simply have fear. I can’t even pretend to bravely go ahead.
He’s been in so much pain and so ill. He wants this so much. I wish this were a simple nightmare and I could wake up and have things different.
People keep saying have faith. I am not certain I should even have an opinion. It’s so hard to be brave and supportive when you are full of fear and just want to run and hide.
I would gladly take his place. I so wish it were me.
Thoughts are with you. You are stronger than you think. I am always here for you.
Thanks so much for taking the time to make kind comments. It means so much. It is a very lonely time.
i am so sorry my friend. I wish i could cut the pain and throw it out a window. We are here for you, to listen to you.
we stand with you.
You truly are a great person. Your family is lucky to have you. Thank you so much for taking the time to comment. Are the twins back at their job or are you still locked down?
well the restaurant where they had been working sent them legal notice that all employees were laid off. so they are currently both jobless and frustrated.
Thanks for the kind words, I feel the same way about you!
I was hoping you were where things are starting to open up.
not yet, we are still in the land of lockdown. Governor Hogan (Maryland) is a very smart and cautious person!