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Let Me Fix You

My Mom and I were very close and we learned to accept each other just the way we were, but it took time and struggles. I had crooked teeth and she would say, “When you smile I see your crooked teeth,” so I NEVER smile with my mouth open so my teeth show.  I had a mole on my chin and she said “When I look at you I see that great big mole”, so I took a razor blade to my face and cut it out. Now there is just a big scare. I would get ready for school and she would say let me fix you, so I wore only sweatshirts, levis’, and moccosins. You can not wear those wrong. Mom and I were very best friends and we were fine.

Today was taken back to my childhood, when I made those important decisions about letting go of smiles and cutting my face.

I guess I don’t want to be fixed anymore. It hurts.

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Written by Ghostwriter

9 Comments

  1. mothers mean well but sometimes they don’t think what they say how it can effect
    the person they say things to, but I hope somewhere down the line that you have
    learned how to over look the things she said to change the person you are inside.

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    • Carol, I think you misunderstood. I didn’t find it painful. It was simply the way my Mom was. It was her nature. I just solved the problem as I could. What I did find painful is that a stranger thought my eyes need to be improved on and made pretty. So I took the one thing that I had been praised for away, my big beautiful brown eyes. Such is life. Lesson learned.

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