Doe anyone ever gets homesick just being away from home? I do a lot and I have been in this state for about 8 years now. I moved to California because I am a military spouse and we have our boys, but now that both of my boys are in school I am still at home cause I can’t find a job in my area that will hire me. I have a BA in paralegal and I was trying to see if I could get something but I would have to go out of town to the city.
I am just very homesick because nowadays I don’t have friends and it’s like if I try and make them they don’t want to hang out with me or something. I am not mean or anything. I am very friendly and fun but it’s like the military world is so different and everything. I just wish sometimes that I was back home so that I could go out sometimes and hang with my friends and so that my boys could hang with their kids because it would be so much fun.
I haven’t even been able to visit home because of having no money. I try and write so that I can raise money to visit so that I can see everyone. I want friends and a life plus a career but I mean it is like I can’t because I have to think of who will watch the kids, will my spouse deploy again, or if something happens at school with the boys can I get someone to help me and get them. I am just a little crazy with leaving them with someone cause I am not all that trusting when it comes to my kids, but I mean my oldest is 9 so when he gets a little older he can be home with his brother without issues but I am waiting until he is like 12 or 13 cause I want him to be very responsible and aware of what is going on.
I am glad I am out the town I was in because there is a lot of chaos there but I would have a job and everything. I mean it is just so hard, but I am making the most of it and I am going to try and release my first novel next year. I want to self publish and then go through a company for my next book. I write a lot of short stories too and I want to share them with you all here and see if you like them. I hope that you will. I have stories on other sites too, so all my stories are all different and I love that I am so creative.
I am so grateful to be able to be home but I am long overdue and doing this for a long time unless I am going to be working from home is getting exhausting because everyone thinks that it is fun and easy until they have to do it themselves. I always tell people that this SAHM stuff is not for everyone and plus after a few years you may be begging to work or have some type of life like everyone else.