Mother’s Day is a challenging day for me. I was very close to my Mom and her long struggle to leave this was painful and hard. When she passed away she weighed 40 pounds. She was stubborn and she didn’t go until she was ready. (Some day I will ask her what kept her.) My father truly believed if we prayed enough she would somehow get better. Mother’s Day bring the experience to the forefront again and for a time it’s all consuming.
I am told by professionals that its normal and healthy. It doesn’t fell that way. It doesn’t fee normal. I miss her and still that makes me feel selfish.
This Mother’s Day we will spend the day at the nursing home. We’ll take flowers for all the ladies. We won’t reference Mother’s Day, we will just celebrate.