Quitting is Not an Option

In our home the easiest thing in the world would simple be to quit. Give up all the medications. Forget paying any bills. Just quit living. It is hard to imagine anything worse than the pain that he endures every single day.He hasn’t slept more than an hour at a time in at least two years. His wife and daughter passes away. His step children don’t even see him once a year. So why doesn’t he quit. He’s worried about me. It makes my burdens seem more heavy. I honestly believe if I could look him in the eyes and tell him I am okay he would pass. I have gone to do that over and over and I can’t.

I wish I believed this quote. I wish I were strong enough to tell him. More than anything I wish all that he has could have been me  instead.  I wish I could take it now. I wish….