Pushing Through It

I tried to sleep through it but I can’t. This has been on and off since last night. Hallucinations mostly. Maybe some delusions as well, it’s hard to tell. I can’t sleep, and I think it will be all night again. There is a lot of cool energy in my sixth chakra area. I don’t know if it’s real or a hallucination.

My boyfriend keeps asking if I took my meds, and I keep telling him yes. I think I need a higher dosage, but I don’t have an appointment until next month.

I keep thinking I am going through a spiritual transformation. Either it’s real or I’m crazy. It’s hard because I don’t have anyone to talk to about this. Really, who can I talk to about it? No one seems to know anything about spiritual transformations. So I don’t know how to deal with it, or what to do about it. I am reading about spiritual emergencies, in the book called “The Stormy Search for the Self”. Strangely enough I found it in the thrift store.

I will just try to keep myself busy by writing for now.