So I am wondering what it takes to get people excited or interested in anything here. I announced that I was running a contest with a prize- nothing. I sent out some messages on how can can do a community Open List and have some fun – nothing. So what did I learn from this. I really think it is impossible to do something as a community. So when see me making so many posts, it comes down to the fact that I feel very alone here in this crowd. So I am talking to myself, writing for myself and have no real impact. All that is fine. I should get smart and just go back to write and run.
Still I have made some commitments that I must keep because I promised her I would.
She had a favorite song and somehow I believed that would keep her with us. It did not. When it came right down to it, it was one person that made her lose faith in humanity and leave. As I dig through her writings, her journals and the many things she had planned, I am determined to keep her in my heart and share her footprints for her grandchildren.
Like her, my expectations are now rock bottom. I think I finally understand.