After our wedding ceremony, as we entered the reception, as we began our first dance, I was an actress on a stage. I was perfect.
No one could ever know that I didn’t love this man as I loved my sister’s boyfriend, who would, at the end of the night, become her fiance.
Perhaps, if I had never seen Maxie, if I had never had the explosion of emotion, I would toss myself into Bob’s life, jumping without a parachute.
I would be one of those women whose man was the center of their being. Fortunately, I was not.
We went on our honeymoon and I was interested in the place, the people, everything. I was not one of those women who ‘only had eyes’ for her groom, and wouldn’t see or hear or note, I was completely there, at the resort, living in the moment.
It was something I’d heard about, this ‘Be Here Now’ thing, this “Mindfulness” . As I needed not to think about my marriage, my husband, anyone or anything, I was a perfect example.