As you stumbled through his adultery you realise that for all the years of the marriage, you were postponed, you came second, if you came at all.
This will hit you like a lightening bolt.
You will recall all the places you didn’t go, things you didn’t do, even television programs you didn’t watch, because of him.
Because of the marriage, you put him first.
You remember doing laundry at night, you remember, coming in from work and cleaning, you remember how it felt when he didn’t come home, or came home late with a lie.
You remember how you felt, how he made you feel, and vow that will never happen again.