Addictions

I have been smoking, drinking and drinking coffee since I was twelve. I am now 45. That’s 33 years of being an addict. I managed to quit drinking eight years ago. I occasionally dream I am in a bar and no one will serve me. Yet in waking life I have no cravings for alcohol.

I wish the same could be said for smoking. I have been trying to quit for seven months. I have tried everything. Cold turkey, patches, nicotine gum, inhalers. So far I’ve had the best success when I go cold turkey. But “success” is lasting no longer than five days. I’ve even tried therapy specifically for my smoking addiction.

I would love to be free of all of my addictions, even caffeine. I plan to try to quit smoking again next week. Mine is a mental addiction, because the physical cravings are easy to deal with. It’s the mental part that is hard. It is at a basic level a third chakra issue, a matter of personal will.

But I will keep trying, because I really WANT to quit.