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Sad! I Am Hoping Luck Brings Me a Good Day

I remember a time, not too long ago, when I believed that having a good day or a bad day was in my control. I was pretty good at adjusting and  taking on a new plan if that was needed.  Currently I am in more of a free fall. 

The doctor is pretty insistent that the knee replacement is a must. I don’t have the time, money, energy or desire to deal with it. I have learned pretty well how to deal with the constant pain. I think that I believe my body is breaking down for a reason. It was designed to be that way.  I wasn’t made to last forever.

My husband asked last night if I was simply doing things I have to do or was I doing things I love to do. I am really not sure if there are things that I love to do any longer. I am often just sore, tired and overwhelmed with the simple act of living.

Computer says it is time to go to work. So I do what is required.

  • Question of

    Do you sometimes just do what you are required?

    • Yes
    • No
  • Question of

    Do you ever just want to stop?

    • Yes
    • No

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Written by Ghostwriter

2 Comments

  1. Sorry about your condition. Don’t you have health insurance that will bear the costs? Most of my treatment is covered by health insurance.