I am sad but I am crying for joy
Because I am full of blessings
that maybe I am blind of
because I am trying to catch for something.
Standing still fighting loneliness
because of my different view of happiness
I may be painting a smile on my face
but my eyes would defy me instead.
What really had happened?
My reflection is different from what I can see
Where was the girl who dreamed simple
The girl who dreams of true love.
Long, gone for a while
Maybe took a diversion to look for someone
Or parked on somewhere to stop and think
Went on a sleepover to evade.
The pain of yesteryear
That’s been hard to forgive and forget
The past that I am trying to bury
but kept on haunting me.