I am not sure where it came from or why, but I suddenly felt like I should be on a quest of some kind. Then it occurred to me as often does, I am not even sure what a quest is. So I did as I was taught and looked it up. Here is the definition, a long or arduous search for something. Which brought up a whole other question. What is arduous? So I did as I was taught and looked it up. Here is the definition, involving or requiring strenuous effort; difficult and tiring.
Humm, do I really want to do something that is long, difficult, tiring and strenuous? I guess it would have to be based on the end result, the reward. So what is missing so much in my life that I am looking for some kind of quest? Wow, I do know what I desire and I have no ideas about how to go about it. Do I simply tell the Universe what it is I so desire and do everything in my power to create it? Actually, I think I have done that and it didn’t work. My natural assumption is that I did it wrong.
I think what I desire is to be seen. I am tired of being invisible. I want to contribute. I want to be noticed, at least in my own home. I want people to see me rather than to look through me. I have always been invisble and in the shadows. It is lonely there.