We addicts are addicts because we have a problem or twenty dealing with reality.
It is that simple.
For whatever reason, the same reality which all but pushes some of us Humans to try harder, fight like nothing else and force ourselves to keep going, sparks a reaction in us of something like “Oh. I’ll be okay just as long as I can numb my feelings a bit.”
While we worry about how something feels to us, non-addicted normal people just trudge right through.
To put it simply, we just never learned how to cope with pain and discomfort.
We’re like little children. Little babies. Spoiled like toddlers, in the area of frustration tolerance.
When a non-user (of anything – including alcohol) encounters a problem, they either look for a solution – or at the very least – grit their teeth and make it through – or at least “blow up,” expressing themselves.
We addicts choose to opt-out emotionally, instead. We internalize, rather than verbalize, as if the rest of the world should read our minds and help us.
Once I quit the drugs (a variety of them in case a reader is curious) I found myself now dealing with the emotions I had been numbing for so many years. The backlash of now unfettered emotions had me behaving like a madman.
It’s one hell of a ride, too
It is upon us to either find a solution to the problem(s) besetting us, deal with the situation as it stands or at least gripe and complain.
In the event we encounter a problem which cannot be solved (it happens) or we find ourselves in a situation where we have nobody to hear us out, we need to remember one, little phrase: “This too, shall pass.”
Nothing lasts forever, good or bad.
The last thing anybody needs is to hide from our problems. Now, I still occasionally do this, myself. I don’t mean to be one of those, “Do as I say and not as I do,” types of people. It’s just that my recovery has to be taken in stages or levels of some sort.
I didn’t screw my life up all in one day and there’s just no way it can be repaired all at once.
So, be meticulously patient with yourself, while learning to live without chemical enhancements.