You have no qualms about talking for hours to your friends. They were with you when he was not, and there is no guarantee he is home to stay.
All the little things you put away on marriage, because he didn’t like them, all the activities abandoned because they took time from the marriage, you had grasped as a life preserver when he was not there.
You got through the days because you knew you would see a best friend, attend a meeting, perform a task, and little things became important, because the big thing, your husband, was gone.
All those little things which became important, remain important.
He becomes a ‘visitor’ to your life. He fills in certain gaps. You can love him but not more than you love yourself.