I needed to talk to someone, but the only person who’d been my chat bank was Cali. I couldn’t never let her know how I felt.
Firstly, I was 24 and not really ready for marriage.
Secondly, I was in the process of gaining more qualifications so as to go for a promotion, so my money was pinched.
Thirdly, if she broke off with Ken because of me I couldn’t take the pressure, the burden, the guilt.
All I could do was keep myself together as I was, and not be at the wedding.
I thought of running away but this was my ‘world’.
Everyone knew me, I was safe on every corner. If I walked into the supermarket without money, they’d trust me. I often got freebies.
My family was here. Everything that mattered to me was here.
All I had to do was keep it together.