6:40 pm
7:06pm
Monday
08/28/17
Blanket
I would sit in the tiny closet,
Where we kept all the blankets—
To get away from him.
He would go into the house looking for me.
He would tell you to leave me home alone.
I never had a mother.
You always did what he told you.
You never had a mind of your own.
I never had a mother.
When he was with his buddies, he would
Put his cigarette butt out in my pants, inside my under ware.
I would run to the bathroom.
You weren’t home.
I never had a mother.
My saving grace was when brother was born.
He had a new victim in the ‘80’s.
A new victim he could torture.
I never had a mother.
He told you to work, so that he could be alone with me.
But once you got pregnant with brother,
You had to quit your job.
I became an expert at hiding.
I became an expert at being by myself, all of the time.
I never had a mother.
Now, I’m an expert at not relying on anyone because I knew
Early on, I could not rely on you.
You were no one I ever admired.
I admired Madonna, and Wonder Woman.
I never had a mother.
7:12 pm
Crying crying crying my heart is so cold for this all i just wanna do is cry at the till dawn because i could feel your pain