Quit Day

Well I quit smoking today. It’s not too bad so far. I’ve been managing. It’s not horrible. I’ve been somewhat restless and it’s hard to relax. I feel some brain fog. It feels like I’m missing/forgetting something.

I haven’t gone across the street to the store to buy a pack of cigarettes, so I’m proud of myself so far. It’s only been eight hours, but that is a long time for me. I think my boyfriend is having an even easier time of it than me. He had only complained of being bored, and not knowing what to do with his hands. Otherwise he says he’s fine.

I hear that the cravings/withdrawals peak on the second to third day of quitting. If I can get through that, I think I can safely say I can do it. I won’t say I’ve quit though until at least two weeks. Then I will quit drinking coffee after I feel I’ve safely quit cigarettes.

Honestly I could smoke anytime, it’s a short walk across the street to the store. I have thought about it several times. But I want my will to be stronger. I want to do this. I have thought of giving my boyfriend my bank card and money so I won’t go buy some in a weak moment. But then it’s not willpower.

I have enough Nicotrol for four more days, and gum for four days after that. I will buy some more gum tomorrow, even though I’m not sure if I will need it. Better to have it than not if I need it.

My day didn’t go as I had planned it. I was supposed to quit in the morning, but I had extra smokes I didn’t want to waste. I also had my entire day planned out, and hardly did any of it. I thought I would need more distraction, but so far anyway I haven’t really had to worry about it too much. Just kind of eased through the day doing what I felt like. I do feel I need to watch how much coffee I drink. I felt like I was drinking more than I normally do. To replace the smoking probably. Anyway, I will give updates on my quitting progress as I go along.